before i drift off to dreamland last night, i had this scary illusion (i call this an illusion cos im not exactly sure if it's really a dream).

i was in this hospital ward, lying on this bed with white sheets. i think im down with some serious illness. on my left, there is this huge window with the sun shining very brightly. i can even hear the birds chirping out there; it's like a cheerful and happy sight. but the ward looks gloomy and gray; it is just mere depressing. and most of the people i know in my life surrounded me around my bed and kept calling my name. it actually puzzled me cos im pretty sure that im sober during the entire illusion. but oh wells, it's like i saw almost everyone i know in my life in the ward. and they took turns to surround me and call out my name.

to be frank, i was scared. i thought i was dying, and i am afraid that the illusion was actually real; and that im just dreaming that im lying on my bed instead. i think i sound confusing, dont i?

anyways, i guess if i should really be down with some scary terminal illness, it'd be good and comforting to know that the people i know are there to give me support and be there for me.

oohs or maybe that's a sign to tell me that i would screw up my papers, which i actually did for my investments. i felt unusually calm after this paper, though i know that ive screwed up major parts of the paper. and if choi choi choi, sam's hunch is true that we screwed up the investment report, lao niang here would definitely be a repeat student alr. ah fuck, i cant even bear the thought of it.

all i can do is pray hard that i can scrape it through. i would be happy enough to get a damn PA.